I loved you
You said we should be together
I loved you
You were to look after me – however
I loved you
Now I don’t believe you loved me … ever!
I loved you
Marriage was just the start
I loved you
Gave you my all, plus my heart
I loved you
But you just took and remained apart
I loved you
Wanted to help, to become a team
You stayed aloof and ruined my dream
I said I was pregnant and felt such a glow
You turned at the door and just said “I know”
I loved you
Twins they said. A girl and a boy?
I loved you
But you sucked away at all my joy!
Yet I loved you
Meant to please you, not to annoy
I loved you
Lost the babes after a hospital stay
I loved you
You didn’t care much, you just turned away
I loved you
“Work” you said ”we need the pay”
I loved you
I thought the compassion would come
I loved you
You’d see me anew. Again I ‘d be The One
I loved you
But belittling me you thought was fun
I loved you
He’ll change I thought, give him time
But the company he craved wasn’t mine
No! Golf and cards. Computer games
For me cold rejection and deriding my fame
Yet I loved you
After trials and troubles a baby arrived
I loved you
Thank you, God. This one survived I loved you
But you left us alone. No sign of pride
Yet I loved you
Ever hopeful! A year or so passed
I loved you
I truly hoped out marriage would last
I loved you
I worked and worked, but you spent the money too fast
I loved you
Another baby lost and deeply mourned for
I loved you
You were cross my future earnings looked poor
Did I love you?
Our life together now seemed unsure
I loved you
Babies for me were a difficult option
I loved you
We talked a little. Like you. An adoption?
I loved you
But my earnings were needed. No other option.
Did I love you?
You were cold with our son. Never played!
I loved you
Always hoping you’d change. So I stayed
I loved you
At last again – pregnant! A girl you wanted made!
I loved you
I worked in the kitchen, I worked with our baby.
I loved you
Commercials and chat shows, quizzes and – maybe …
I loved you
Perhaps all would come right? We had money – they paid me.
I loved you
At last we had two sons. I was happy – life was just glorious
I loved you
“Play with us! Stay with us! Are you not curious?”
We loved you
You preferred ‘Lone Time’. You were spiteful and furious!
I loved you
So many changes! That’s why he’s mean!
Please. Cherish your sons and not just demean!
All their efforts. You scowled and seemed ..
To draw further apart.
Cold and hurtful. You have no heart.
I loved you
You took everything. You made us al cry!
I loved you
I kept thinking – one day he’ll try!
I loved you
But I don’t anymore.
So, this is goodbye.
Jenny Hanley